Bored

Could I originally thought I'd come up to here and have plenty of time to write. Felt like diong that of course...Uuuhhuuh. ..Keep dreaming.be more boring? Yupp..im so boring tonight. Boring to myself? To what i am ? Or im a boring person? I'm even boring myself. Some more boring randomness...enough is enough...pull out the boring words from myself...arrgghhh...i miss someone i guess..

What Is Love

Now talking about me, and im still asking my self...till when im going to live in single life? I met one of my old friend, she fall apart with her hubby....the story doesnt make sounds good as to have a happy famlily. So i thought, is marry will truly makes you happy? Will that? Some in love....and yer completely marriage...its like truly not the same as per promises...What is Love? True Love? Blind Love?

an old adage says.. "love is blind".. .. i used to believe it once. oke,fine...maybe not once..perhaps twice..orrr... at least thrice...yes2..i know i was soooo naivee! *haihhhh... :( * i was soooo immature.....that i thought,once u wholeheartedly love someone,the bad side will be blinded as a good thing.and the good trait becomes a pluss pluss pointt! *hahaha.. zaman2 mude dulu tuu..tahh hape2 ntahh.. :P*

but now,as the world changes,my thoughts go parallel as well..i've learned to analyze before accepting any ideas or statements.. and i started to question some quotes and one of it is......DOES LOVE REALLY MAKE SOMEONE BLIND??

the idea popped into my head when i was talking to my friend, about some relationship issues.i told her,LOVE BETWEEN HUMAN IS OVERRATED and LOVE IS NOT ACTUALLY BLIND.from my point of view,love was made blind by human.we did an awful lot of sins which in turn darkens the heart ,unable us to see what is right and what is wrong.while the heart may turn silver shining and gain its ability to 'see' again after repentance,most of us ignored the fact and keep on doing what most of us felt comfortable to do-SINNING*ya Allah,ampunkan dose kami.. isk..isk.*. due to this,our heart chronically became gangrenous and eventually die,losing its ability to 'see',hence making us blind literally.

thats why,in this so-called modern world,we can see how couples especially the young ones -they fall head over heels for each other,sacrifice everything they have..and give in to their forbidden love ones as if the other half owes themm...even to the extent of their virginity and dignity and in the end....when the relationship ends.. all they have to say is.. "nak buat macam mane..cinte itu bute.."....and,there's no use crying over spilt milk..(ya Allah,kau peliharelah kami dari godaan syaitan yang sentiase mengajak ke arah zina dan perbuatan dose yang lain..aminn..isk.isk..isk.. :/)but then again.i'm still firmly hold on to my opinion that,love is not blind at all.because-the first priority of all the love in this world is to Allah. we all love Allah,right??*chenta nie lagii syokk woo!! :D:D:D*so,how can it be blind when we can SEE how much He had given us despite our continous diobedience to Him? how can it be blind when we can SEE how forgiving He is to us no matter how ignorant we are most of the time? how can it be blind when we can SEE how faithful He is to stand by us through the difficult times and listen to our agony be it day or night?? how can it be blind?? *masyaAllah..subhanAllah..Allahuakbar! T_T * after all these proves and evidence...if u insisted on saying that love is blind..i guess,what you are referring to is obviously not LOVE.maybe its obsession.maybe its lust or maybe its just a crush!.. :P:P:P ["Sebenarnya ayat-ayat Kami tidak ada cacatnya, bahkan mata hati mereka telah diseliputi kekotoran dosa dengan sebab perbuatan kufur dan maksiat yang mereka kerjakan." (Surah al-Muthaffifiin, ayat 14).

Saturday

uurrggghh...Woke up early this morning and firstly i was thinking of doing some exercises but it failed. Kenape ek? malas kot.
Perhaps because im wasting my time and started to look one by one of my stuff in there my white closet. Too many clothers...i need to do some 5S, too many blouse, too many shirts and too many pants. I spent too much on those things. My probleb is i cant stand if i look smthing is catchy at 1st time, surely grab it...those my close frind knew about my bad spending.
i am watching Oprah Winfrey Show last night at my friend hse and it was about a mother who has killed her daughter without conviction by letting her 2 years daughter in her car while she was teaching in the school for 8 hours.
it is cruel?
no it is just an accident. the issue is, i do respect that woman of being too brave to appear in public and story about her experience on that incident.
and now you can see, how her past tought her about being more careful and calm.so people do share your past memories with anybody to get the lesson on your past. so that, and someday it would be your good memories instead of thinking about it badly. and somehow, you have to admit that you will miss it though. and once again, life is about bringing a good desirable not only for yourselves but it's for your circumference of your life.
i will share mine in the next post perhaps. :)

Farewell..bye to Nooreha and Bai..All Da Best

ok...smua gmbar2 kat bawah ni belaku hhmmm dekat2 jugak la. Its a farewell lunch to friends of us. So...tngok la gmbor2nyee...layannnn

Ni pada yg mengnali...boleh la kalau nk berkenalan...kalau tkmau berkenalan pun tkper...tp yg 2 tu...pperrrgghhh mmg pandai masak...

Ni session memilih makan yg disukai setelah membayar rm10 dan swipe free hehehheheh
Ini sya cuba tunjukkan tngan jarinya yg hampir terluka....tp masih boleh buat kek ok...tngannya dijilat wap panas....kekekkekeke, kenagan open hse cikcon 2009.

Ini lah princess cantek yg nak resign ttuuu..yg biru tau....yg belang2 tu ada lagi kekekekkekek...tu tinee la, saper lagi...8 month preggy women.

Awek cun made in China nih....single and not avaailable...sowyyy

No photo session ..besa la...bagi kami2 yg gilllerr glamour...

Cantik2nye meraka kt dlm gambar ni....hehhehehhe

Saat2 last raya 2009

Lets wrap up all in one page. Im not able to upload all. sbb kalau upload smua....hhmmmm jenih la nak tngok nnti...aahhakkkssNi time raya kat Gold Coast.....cheeeeiiii bkan australia ek..Tudung hitam tu kak Azah. Akak ni mmg best aarrrr......cool habis...sebelah tu mat khaifti...MAS steward...yg sorang lgi tu tk kenal la pulak....Tapi yg 2 org ni mmg bestt.....gelak jeee kalau dok ngan dorang..
Ni bersama2 makan spaghetti oreo kat umah Diana. Thanks Diana...sedap sangat....Bab masak , dari dulu lagi Diana mmg terror..
Masa ni plak kat umah kak Azah. kak Azah masak banyak gak la...dan smua2 pun sedap2 belaka. Tapi gambar kak Azah lak tkder dlm ni...kak Azah tngh masak time tangkap gmbor ni...Eh ada gmbar nye...tp tk sesuai lak nk upload kt sini...HHmmmmm ni masa gi umah Shidah...umah dia lain skit sbb mkn special gak la...apa tu yg mcm chicken ball, sotong, kangkong celup2 pastu ada kuah tu....alaa apa kita pangge ek...ada nasi ayam gek...mmg sedap. Sbb tu la berat dh back to normal kakkakakakaa.....

Sajer upload gambar2 terbengkalai

Recentlyy....

Saya memag suka bergambar.....kekekkekeke...

Adam time ni tngh mood swing...sbb baru bngun tido...

During her 7month ++... Does it look Big? Tinee ur face is just like a copy paste to your sister...sejibikkk mcm Yan

Ni time kuar ngan Tinee....so ptg2 tu minum kopi sblm balik..my fav. latte.....one latte tall for me plz..ouucchhh..nyampah jer org baceerr....kutuk la kalau nk kutuk...tk sakit pun..

Dahlia on her last visit to here....

Tak penting Untuk Semua DIA tahu

Ia bukan segala-galanya. Yang cantik, indah, dipandangan belum tentu yang terbaik. Yang Nampak menyelerakan, belum tentu baik dan sedap bila dimakan. Begitu mata mudah tertipu. Justeru ada timbangannya dalam hidup ini bila mahu menilai sesuatu.

Aku sudah jadi bisu

Hampir putus asa kalau

Bukan akur pada ingatan Tuhan

tentang rahmatNya yang maha luas
Untuk dia,

Aku benci mahu merayu memohon

Meminta tolong

Kerana dia tidak layak untuk itu semua

Orang yang layak adalah orang yang punya

sesuatu untuk dikongsi

Pandangan Allah...

Sasar

Kata-katanya membuatkan ku termenung seketika. Ada benar kata katanya. Alhamdulillah...ku harus lihat kembali akan kesilapanku. Definately im not a good person and yet a good friend to be with. Atleast i know i did a mistake. Kena banyak bermuhasabah diri ni.

Bila kita pandang segalanya dari Tuhan, yang menciptakan segalanya, yang menimpakan ujian, yang menjadikan sakit hati ini, yang membuatkan keinginanku terhalang, serta menyusahkan hidupku… Pasti akan damailah hatiku, kerana masakan ALLAH sengaja mentakdirkan segalanya untuk sesuatu yang sia-sia… Bukan ALLAH tidak tahu deritanya hidupku, retaknya hatiku, tapi mungkin itulah yang DIA mahu kerana DIA tahu hati yang sebeginilah yang selalunya lebih lunak dan mudah untuk dekat dan akrab dengan Nya…

Dlm kita melangkah..terkadang diuji dengan ujian yg terasa berat ..Hingga kita terduduk dan menangis..Ya aku sering menangis kerana kutahu...mmg banyak silapku dalam mengharungi liku liku hidup seharian ini.

Peritnya terasa tetapi ku harus ketahui dan renungi kembali ke diri ini kerana mungkin air mata itu hadir kerana Dia mahu kita menjahit kembali sejadah iman yg kian terkoyak lantaran ada langkah2 yg tersasar… Ya..mmg aku selalu tersasar...

Biar kepahitan itu pergi agar kemanisan mengisi…!.

Biarkan kekecewaan berlalu..agar kegembiraan berlagu….!

Biarkan kegelisahan lenyap..jangan kita hilang semangat…!

Biar penderitaan itu menyapa…agar kekuatan kita jana semula…!

Biarkanlah diri derita agar kita tahu kepahitan derita ini dan kita sedar kesengsaraan adalah ujian darinya.

Allah tidak akan sesekali menzalimi hambaNYa tapi manusia yang menzalimi diri mereka sendiri…!

Semoga akan ku tabah dan ditetapkan iman..

Biarlah apa mereka nak kata...

Semalam Bufday Anjang

Last nite, me acik and Adam kluar mkn pizza ngn anjang and pakjang....bufday anjang plak kali ni...The best is...anjang dapat hadiah best...jelesssss aarrrrrrrrrrr....Mula2 dok guess gak ngan acik kot2 dapat hp or kasut ke...sbb tngok kotak besar.....uuhuhuuhuhh...tngok2 bestnyee.....jelesssss...So anjang kena grab bb cepat skit..kekekkee. nnti senang anjang nk g class...ehehehehe ye ke anjang yg senang???? or....

Sbb seronok sngat..anjang trus kenyang hehehhehe..Adam jer makn kann..kan

Beraya

Sharing. Those photos taken during opn house kat umah Imah...Tngok la ratu pokok pisang tu, merah menyala. Almaklum la...bakal pengantin , mesti la berseri selalu.

Look at those pretty lady...guguuggagagaggagaa....

Food served mmg best....no doubt. But im totally full so just grab few bites....Tp mmg best.

Aduh...ape ni?

Sedih? takde lah
Marah? tak lansung
Sakit hati? takde la...
Geram? Mungkin kot...

Open House On Dis Weekend..

Chhooooppp...ari ni total ada 4 open house. Pastu campor umah kawan Nang Khairun Nisak jadi 6. Ffuuuhhh..6 semuanya. Last week 4 jer rasa dh mcm nk burst out. Mula2 nk pegi umah Zarriey...2ndly umah Anis pastu umah Asmadi than umah si saper tu namanya ek? Umah Anis ni pun tktau kat mana....jenuh nak mencari nih..
Ahad ada lgi...mashaallah mewahnya ujung minggu ni.. Mewahkan rakyat Malaysia ni...Kalau 1 umah tu mesti ada 3 or 4 jenis makanan. Sedap2 belaka laks tu...sedap jer kita makn..Mcmanan mangsa2 kat Pdang Indon tu...Kita kat sini terlalu nikmat rasanya..Semoga kita sentiasa berada didalam keadaan yg sentisa bersyukur dgn segala nikmat yg telah dilimpahkan olehnya...
Ahad umah ujang, umah x spansion 2 org, umah Suzila....umah siapa lagi ek? uuiisshhh ramai gak dah tu.. Boleh ke gi semau...aaarr umah Wan lagi...
Sungguh besar nikmat yg kau limpahkan pada kami Ya Allah...semuga kami sentiasa diadalam golongan yang sentiasa besyukur...

Im Not OK today.

No intro. Totally i felt so down today. Feeling Sad, Crying alone. Only god knows..I dont like this feeling...the mood doesnt help me today. Im totally dull, deep in my heart...its really really paintful. Why it always happen to me.

When she Gone

She's gone
Somewhere far from us...

some could please help to tell me, whos son is this? Time ni dia dh penat sngat...penat sbb tunggu akak nk departure. Ni kiran dia dah boring gillerr.

All because of that person

Did i realize that im this bad...i always want to change...but i've less spirit...too easy to be influenced.......d same bad as yesterday...wish i could be a better person...not to satisfy others,but be myself......i just dont want to be like this forever..hhuuuhhh...enough about that. It wont help me rite now.

so now...all i can say...i much prefer living by myself...lot of things i would lose by getting into a relation...it cost too much... too much burden.

Guess what...

been a year,i was living in questions......i kept asking myself,maybe,i'd done something that not ok. no matter how hard i pushed my brain to think and think about that and yet still i could not find d answer...as there was no answer...i didn't do anything...but now,i know d truth...its hurt,yeah its really hurt...forgetting all those memories and having no more weird feeling towards ....i wish that everyone would choose to be outspoken,honest with ur feeling and keep no secret..holding someone in question is very cruel..it torture d person's feeling badly,truth is really hurt but pain will stands for only a moment but after 1 or 2 days,u will feel no more sadness...u may also forget the problems...but if u hold someone in question,not telling d truth,u r torturing she/he mentally...unless u reveal d truth,d person won't feel better,won't forget d problems and d best of it,he/she will suffering and living in pain for a long time until u tell he/she d truth...believe my words,its hurt...

btw should i ask him again? hhuhhhh...i will hurt me again...

Takder Tajuk kot..

Sleepy, Tired, Exhausted...

That the words that can describe how I am right now. There are so much things to do in so little of time. I'm so sleepy as the last couple of days,! Even during sleep! Those deep thought during sleep hours, really make me worried and make my mind and body tired and exhausted. Complete whole set that can lead to maximum stress and depression! Fuh!Not's only that, I had make punishments to myself for not able to satisfy myself and disappointing somewone. Someone? it's not my mistake la. But i think she hurt me. By using her laser toung although at first started with a normal conversation. But because of she is older than me, i have to "sabar" and not to reply watever she said. Do she think that she is perfect? It ok let her be wateva she want to be. But for my part, mybe i need to squeeze away myself so that i wont hurt again with her laser tounge. Ooouusschhh...i should watch my words too.

Weekend always be my non-working days. I have to find out myself this weekend, will I be able to work instead of leisure? Hehehe. Gosh...I have already plan to bake cake this weekend.

So..that part of my life that have a little bit of disappointing. But I do have to be really optimistic and positive. Life never perfect. And though I am not perfect...I always think that I deserve to be the best! So..I have to do the best to become the best!. Yeah..semangat!!!.Then..come the kenangan. Errmm...I guess 'kenangan' always become our best dreams.

Let share this kenangan which i snap using my lovely sony ericsson.

Nama anak da'ee bju merah ni Faiqah. Dia pun suka dh bergaya sakan skrg. Ni bagus ni. nnti mama Danish dapat baby tkyah beli stroller lagi dah. Share jer. Tp yg kesiannye, pagi raya ke 5 kot...tngok2 tayar stroller danish dah patah satu. Anakku punye brand ni mmg tak tahan la. Takpe pasni soh beli Maclaren lak hehhehheTengok la Nur Auni yg debab ni. Ni time kitaorg bergotong royong buat sate. Penat gak la. Ni pakwe mane ek? Ustaz mana ni? Hehheheh ni baju Adam maktok beli kt Mekah.

Hari Raya

Sajer nk share citer sikit. Tahun ni mostly semua balik raya kat umah mak. Cumer bezanya raya ke2 baru smua 11 anak balik and + satu family anak angkat mak dari Serawak datng beraya bersama. Hari rya pertama dh smpai dlm kul 1pm. Terharu gak sebab dorang satu family dlm 7 orang dtg beraya dgn maktok kedah. Big amount of money ha...jauh lak tu. Suka sngat dorang.
So hari rayer ke2, baru acik and andak balik. So pperrrhh...riuh rendah. Anak 11, menantu (tolak ler saye) and cucu. rasanya cucu dlm 20ek? ntah taksure...luper nk kira. Tapi kalau cucu lebih 20 org...maktok bagi sorang 50...uisshhhh..bayak nyeee....uuhuuhuhu tk penah pun dapat mcm tu time kecik2 dulu...unless kena g beraya sampai 50 buah umah baru leh dapat kot...tu pun kalau tk penat. Berungtung budak2 skrg.

Raya ke2, bakar sate. And mak ada buat kenduri sikit. Riuuh sungguh time tu.

Tapi dalam keseronokan tu...ada jugak la yg terkecil dan terbesar hati. Biasa la adik beradik...

Sajer je edit gambor2 ni. Ni ari raya ke2.

Ni kiranya anak2 buah yg bawah2 skit la....mcm team B la. Tapi adam katne ek time ni....ooo patut la Adam tkderr, Adam rayer umah tok perak pagi tu...

Ni time citer citer pagi raya gak lerr..seronok anak2 buah, maktok bagi sorang 50..jeles nih.

Berposing kat laman umah jerrr tpi beriya sungguh

Ni kiranya photo session la.... tp tk smua pun bergambar...sibuk pagi2 raya

Ni pulak family andak...ada org baru tu tahun ni , Qaisarah

Ni da gals yg glamer...ashik berposing jer