Did i realize that im this bad...i always want to change...but i've less spirit...too easy to be influenced.......d same bad as yesterday...wish i could be a better person...not to satisfy others,but be myself......i just dont want to be like this forever..hhuuuhhh...enough about that. It wont help me rite now. so now...all i can say...i much prefer living by myself...lot of things i would lose by getting into a relation...it cost too much... too much burden.
Guess what...
been a year,i was living in questions......i kept asking myself,maybe,i'd done something that not ok. no matter how hard i pushed my brain to think and think about that and yet still i could not find d answer...as there was no answer...i didn't do anything...but now,i know d truth...its hurt,yeah its really hurt...forgetting all those memories and having no more weird feeling towards ....i wish that everyone would choose to be outspoken,honest with ur feeling and keep no secret..holding someone in question is very cruel..it torture d person's feeling badly,truth is really hurt but pain will stands for only a moment but after 1 or 2 days,u will feel no more sadness...u may also forget the problems...but if u hold someone in question,not telling d truth,u r torturing she/he mentally...unless u reveal d truth,d person won't feel better,won't forget d problems and d best of it,he/she will suffering and living in pain for a long time until u tell he/she d truth...believe my words,its hurt...
btw should i ask him again? hhuhhhh...i will hurt me again...
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